No Progress While Standing at the Crossroads
I haven’t made any progress the past couple days because I’ve been preoccupied not only with my everyday stuff but also the developments in my potential paths for next year. There are four main options I have to consider, two of which involve furthering my education. Just moments ago, I withdrew my application for one after concluding it was financially infeasible. I’ll be looking into financing for the other in a few weeks once I find out if my current gig is going to pan out the way I’m hoping or not.
Ever since high school, I’ve scarcely stayed in any one spot for more than two years. That being said, it feels like only yesterday that my previous Japan venture fell apart and I had to return home in defeat. I managed to make the most of it, though, and though my footing is still a little uncertain, I’m ready to try for something new. I don’t know how things will shape up or how they’ll affect my writing career, but you never can tell.
I have a strange pseudo-fatalistic view of the universe. I believe in endless possibilities but ultimately only one path that you follow. We each have a path that we are supposed to follow, but our ultimate purpose may not come to fruition anytime soon. Somewhat paradoxically, I’m a firm believer in free will. We have our set path, but we make the choices that put us on that path. When faced with multiple options, we just have to grope about in the dark until we find the track. I believe I’ve just resolved one branch that wasn’t meant to be. One down, two go.
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Ramblings | James Carmack | 09 October 2013 |
